What areas of my life do I dive into fully? Which do I tippy toe into due to fear? I sit and wonder why I let fear stop me in some areas and in others it’s so easy? The ironic part for me is that I love to take big leaps into things that many would consider very scary.. i.e. moving to another country on my own, finishing my masters, launching a business. But it’s the little things that trip me up…
How to manage my time
How to practice daily self-care (floss, get dressed cute, work out, cook for myself etc)
I don’t think I will ever be a pro at adulting. I also think we have been sold a bunch of BS on what it means to be an adult. Aren’t we always just figuring it out anyway? I thought by 32 I would be so put together and somehow have it all figured out. Oh boy, was I wrong. I am just learning to be an adult. I am just learning to truly take care of myself.
I spent the majority of my teens and 20’s living acting out and looking for love in all the wrong places. I was tormented internally – feeling unloved, unworthy and not seen. My life and choices in f’d up relationships was a side effect of my internal world of pain and trauma. It wasn’t until the latter part of my 20’s and first two years of my 30’s that I really started to dive into what I needed to let go of in order to have more of the life I wanted.
It wasn’t that I wasn’t healing prior to that- it was just I had more space to finally not just survive and heal but to live and heal. I got sober from alcohol October 8th 2016. It was the piece of my life that I never even thought I would have to give up. After all I was young and just having fun. I never liked drugs. Only alcohol and cigarettes and even that not daily for most of my life. I didn’t think it was that bad. I didn’t view it as a problem at all. But little by little I heard my internal voice say- alcohol makes you act in ways that don’t serve you
And so I did. One day at a time, with fear but faith. I consider that courage. We need not wait for fear to subside and in most cases when my fear is the highest- it was me taking action one step at a time that the fear subsided.
Where are you feeling calling to take action despite the fear, in your life? Share in the comments below! And if you are needing a little extra support this month, feel free to email me at ChristineGTV@gmail.com for a free 15 min consultation call.